Lack of Interest

Tried to write this 5 different times and stopped because I just can't find my voice. So...instead of a written post letting you all know what's been going on with Maelin's new big-girl-bed, the new cat we inherited from my mom, and a thousand other things, you're going to get a few recent pictures of Maelin.

Much easier for me to do. So I hope you enjoy.

Maelin Takes a Bath

She moves pretty fast so it's hard to grab a picture of her that isn't blurry, but this one is pretty cute. She's busy enjoying her bath...

MIchelle Sings to my Mom

We played this at my mom's memorial yesterday.

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I'm not sure what to write here. My mom has been gone for 7 days now and I'm still struggling to understand exactly how that happened. Why didn't the doctors know sooner how sick she was? Why her? Why us? So many questions...

For those of you who have sent messages, thank you so much. Every single text, email, message has been read and appreciated and most of them have brought a tear to my eyes. (or more than one). It seems to come and hit me in waves...some moments I'm fine, and others...well.

Today has been a hard day. I'm busy arranging the funeral and memorial services and still trying to take good care of my very busy 2 year old. I realized yesterday that her birthday is quickly approaching so I better get on the plans for that. Life does go on, it seems...

Funeral is Saturday. I hope that will bring my family and I some closure and we can start the process of moving on. I'm not sure what that would look like except that we breathe in and out each day and go to sleep and get up and do it again.

I hope to be back writing for this as soon as I can. In the meantime...I'm breathing.